" This time it's Lady Lisa. "And when you had the money to buy the necklace too!" Another crack from Mistress Nikki. "When I shoplifted, it was becaus... I didn't have any money. My husband wouldn't give me shit. Wouldn't let me work or do anything else for that matter without consulting him. Fuck, I had to get his permission if I wanted to eat or take a shit for Christsakes. How dare you who has everything fucking handed to her come into our store and attempt to shoplift?" Three more cracks. The. He said he wouldn't be satisfied with anything less than my dismissal. I begged and pleaded for him to forget about it. He relented when I agreed to pay for his meal.I wasn't physically afraid of him, like I was with the beast rearing down on me, but it was the power of intimidation he had over me. Just the threat of seeing the manager and I was paying for his lunch. Sure, my manager probably would have stood by me, but in the moment, I was weak and scared.If I forced myself to be honest, even. Forgiveness for what had happened to her and what she wanted to do. She too was seeing Counsellors to help her come to terms with the abuse, but unlike Katrina she was not making progress, and her hate and need for revenge was taking on an enormous part of her thoughts. For her to get back her life she would need to take another route, a route that she was busy dreaming up, keeping those plans to herself. * Sitting in the rented caravan on the grounds in front of Johns burnt down farmhouse,. I loweredmyself as far as I can down to my beautiful little girl's level."Soon sweetie," I tell her, "daddy will be home soon." I want my new little sister, she says, I'm tired of brothers. When's mynew little sister coming?" I look down at my six children and place herlittle girls hand on my belly."Not for a little while sweetie, four more months. It's a long time foryou, but she'll come soon and as soon as we can after that we'll haveanother baby growing here."I feel my little girls hands.