What clued me in was the letter I found on his nightstand while I waited for him to come home. This is what it said: {Dear Carter, You are my last tho...ghts before I sleep. The memory of your touch is what helps me arise from bed each morning. Being in your presence is beyond any gift I have ever received. Waking up in your arms is more precious than diamonds. -Yes, this includes the 3 carat studs you gave me last night. You are everything to me and everything isn’t a strong enough word to. Nalla veluthu kozhutha kalukalil cheriya romangal kanam. Calfinte vannam kanda Adiyude vayil kothiyooori. Porathenu velutha baniyanu mukaliloode pink colour bra yude nizhaladikkunnu. Ithu kooodeyayappol adiyude kuttan cheruthayonn ponthi.Anju Adiye vilichu kondu muriyilekku poyi.Muri kurach alangolamayi kidakkukayanu. Adi muriyilekk keriyappol thane Anju avalude meshayil virichittirunna bra um shaddi um eduth matti. Cyan color bra yum niraye pookkal print cheytha pink colour shaddiyum. Ithum. "Oh yes, very well too. Almost as well as you did. She said that you wouldn't say anything, that you'd just drop your pants, walk up behind her and start fucking her."Matthew laughed. "She's probably right." And that gave me an idea. If I can get her into bed again and let you know, will you walk in and start fucking her?" Oh fuck, I'd love to. I have no idea how our relationship is likely to survive this though." Well, she's fucked me, you've fucked me. I'm sure that you'll survive doing me. A memory of the one time I’d taken the initiative when we were masturbating together… Once – just once, when I’d been on a sleepover with Matthew, we’d been lying side by side on the floor in his room, slowly wanking each other; I’d reached over and put my lips round his cock. To this day I don’t know what made me do it – I’d just done it because it seemed like something to do. It was quite dark in the room and there hadn’t been much reaction from him for about fifteen seconds. Then… ‘What are.