I started doing that the day after the gun battle with Robert, and it did not take Mathew long to find me. I had limited myself to one beer a day duri...g this time because I wanted nothing to slow me down when it came time to draw my gun.I was sitting out of the way against the wall opposite the main entrance to the saloon when Mathew finally showed up. He came in with three tough looking men who were obviously not the run-of-the-mill ranch hand. Two of the three toughs were wearing two guns,. The shaded bulb above me was hot, annoyingly so and perspiration was filming my cleavage. To the left was an overactive area AC unit and my elbows were cold and my knees were chilled below the hem of my skirt. I considered moving a seat or two to the right, but there was a couple making googly eyes with each other a few seats down in that direction, and invading personal space has never sat right with me. I certainly wasn’t moving right toward the AC. I stayed in my hot, cold seat and watched. We were three years and as many thousands of miles away from Baltimore and those times.I took a leather wing-chair across from the couch and crossed my legs, folding my hands in my lap, looking expectantly at the woman who had once filled my life with joy. I took a fast moment to think about her as she gathered her own thoughts.I remember what it was like having her in my life every day. How I didn’t feel complete, didn’t feel ... whole, or human, until I’d seen her every day, talked to her,. As she parked and walked around to the passenger side and noticed the flat tire. She panicked. She wasn’t really sure how to fix a flat. She reached for her cell phone but before she punched in those first few numbers she heard my voice behind her. “Looks like you could use some help?” It was more of a question, you can never be sure these days. But Denise was grateful and accepted my offer with an outpouring of gratitude. She said she didn’t even know if she had a spare. I laughed a.