Did you have help?"As she said this her fingers came to the back of the dress and she feltthe tight corset strings. As she took in the details I thoug...t moreclearly about why I had decided to follow Cindy's suggestion. It was atfirst a desire to try something quite different but it became somehow meas I witnessed the transformation. It astonished me and baffled my mindthat there would be a female within me and Cindy could root it out fromthe deep part of me."How can you breathe?" my Ex asked.. .yes. I know. I told you that you're fully booked but she seems veryupset and says that it's a matter of 'life and death', apparently"!Another pause."Yes..yes - I know. Can you just wait a minute" she said into themouthpiece, and then turned back towards me."The Doctor has asked me what your name is".I was about to say Bill Cartwright, but just stopped myself in time."It'S Amanda .. Amanda Bradshaw" I replied.The receptionist's eyebrows went stratospheric at that point, threatening toleave her. Nothing changed. I began to find ways to watch the house during the day. I passed by when I ran errands. I stopped using the phone, and began to make my local sales calls and follow-ups in person, driving by. Ironically, my business grew while my life diminished. Checking the house became routine, but then, one day, it was there: the strange car in the driveway.I know the are flings, mistakes, momentary lapses in judgement that can be overcome. But there is also the real deal. I would see.. Part of me was relieved that she didn't want to risk getting pregnant but another part of me, a bigger part to be honest, was disappointed. The last time had been so hot! So exiting! We just chatted till it was time to go, then she excused herself and went to the ladies!I was a little surprised because I thought she had made up her mind not to go through with or maybe she just wanted to add to the suspension or she had just now made up her mind I didn't know and I didn't care all I knew was.