It was a complete surprise to me. Last night I thought about it a lot after we went to bed. I have too much to live for to kill myself. I think I’ve...latched onto it as a way of easing the pain, getting peace from everything that’s happened and push the problems away. I don’t want to die. I don’t want to harm myself, but I suppose it’s like a fat person looking at a buffet when they’re on a diet, trying to get themselves in shape. They know that it would be an emotional payoff, but the drawbacks. Instead, I quietly got out of bed and headed for the bathroom. I stared at my naked reflection in the mirror for some time and was happy to see that my large 'D' cup tits still looked as firm as ever. I cupped myself and squeezed them hard, bringing a small cry of pain to my lips. Now my hand dropped down between my legs to find my sopping wet pussy. I didn't take my fingers long to bring me to a crashing orgasm and I slid slowly to the carpeted floor.I was lucky, I suppose, men find me pretty. "She eased back off of my lap onto her knees in front of me. She leaned forward and without any more preliminaries, set about sucking me with a fierceness that shocked me.Mark passed me a beer. "Let me tell you about this fantasy of hers," he started, while I took a sip. "Wild Thing, here, has been talking about being with two men at the same time for at least three years now. Every time we tried to set you up, I would tease her that it would just be easier for everyone if she just took care of. I laughed and told him no, and continued to oral him. I used my tongue to press against the bottom of the head of his cock like I read online, and let it run across my tongue and I moved my mouth up and down my cock. He instructed me to lick his balls, and for a while he went between giving him oral and licking his balls. They were very shriveled and small, but I enjoyed the shape. He asked me if I wanted him to cum, but I told him I wanted him to fuck me. Then he told me to bed over the bed. I.