I was very quiet.She started the conversation saying “When it is started you know it is not going to last forever but I want to be a friend forever ...ith you”. I told “I know but still I am not able to accept it”. After this again silence for some time. She broke the silence with long French kiss; our tongues were fighting like animals. After the kiss, she told “I don’t know about my future sex life but one with you is awesome, show me the heaven one more time”.Those words made me crazy, I. Then she took breast and kept in my mouth the nipples are very hard I started suck she his pressing her breast I kept my left hand on her right breast and started squeeze she doesn’t say her word instead of that she started to rub my head.Then I started to squeeze my penis that time. Again I caught by my mother and she asked me what you are doing? I told her that my penis are become big and she asked me to remove it I was little ashamed to open she said that, she seen me naked so many times. They lean in and breathe into myear, making me quiver, whispering very quietly what a slut I am.. that I'm adirty sissy whore.. that I'm a nasty sex toy... that I've given myself overto this treatment that all this perversion is my idea.. .my desire... allthe time slowly pumping my dick...I'm now getting horny which interferes with my need to pee... then she turnson a tap.. and I go.. feeling her hand directing the flow into the porcelainbowl. Oh.. I feel so embarrassed, so helpless, so... "You did not scar me or give me demons. You opened my eyes and I told my mom all that happened."I can dream, eh?So, here we were in North Tonawanda. I suddenly wanted to write to a friend or two in Springfield.I went looking for my sheet of paper. I knew I had kept it in one certain place. And it was not there.Oh, no. No. It could not be.Mom could not remember if she put it some place else or if I had even packed it for our move.Well, wait a minute. I knew I had seen it shortly after arriving..