While I was drying off, Renee went to retrieve my swim trunks from the patio. I got dressed. Renee kissed me, and I headed back home. As I walked out ...he door, she said to make sure I didn’t leave town without saying goodbye. I wasn’t sure what to make of what had just happened, but I certainly needed that release. It seemed like Renee needed it, too. During my last few days on leave, I had one more encounter with Renee. She made me dinner one night, and we drank a bottle of wine before going. It was full dark outside. He wondered what the time was but didn't want to wake her to look at his watch. Elizabeth was snoring slightly, her hair tousled, lay across his shoulder, obscuring her face with a haze of blonde. Robert felt a physical ache just looking at her. It hurt to take her in, to feel so at ease, but at the same time, knowing that it would end when she woke.As if she knew he was watching her, her eyes opened, she regarded him, silently, giving nothing away, her usual. Cole asked if I was ok now to continue but I blushed again and told him that the "problem" still hadn't gone away".He nervously laughed and began stuttering again."I, I, I could help you deal with it if you want?"I looked at him, not knowing what to say.....I was in a state of confusion, shock, embarrassment and surprise that this GUY has just said this to me. I've never played with a guy before and it wasn't something I had even considered.I sat there still dumfound not knowing how to react,. The Halim force was completely destroyed, but the encounter was sobering for all of us.I felt guilty for being relieved that no one close to me had been lost. I had met many of the people who had been killed, and felt the pain of knowing I would never see them again. I knew from experience how much pain their families would endure. Writing the letters would be hard. It always was, but it was something I felt compelled to do.We didn't linger to lick our wounds, and continued on to Veirtan. To.