I will not lose my faith — you and our tribe can rely on me to be steadfast in this, to be sure and constant in our beliefs. Ben has usurped and sul...ied God's name, and I need help to figure out what to do about that. So, I will pray to our God for guidance!"Elizabeth and Thomas had fled the heated exchange in Ben and Sarah's cave and returned to their own accommodation."Well I guess that confirms that Ben and Sarah knew all along that David had Beckie, or is it Lillian?" said Thomas."That was. I had to intervene."Sarah," I said calmly but firmly, sending a mental command making sure she would take to heart what I was about to say, "Melody had no idea that I would go off half cocked and neither did you. It wasn't her fault. It wasn't your fault. Sure, if she had warned you, you wouldn't have gone out with him. If you hadn't fought hard enough, you would have been raped and they wouldn't have been running their mouths. If you hadn't told me what they were saying about you, I wouldn't. It blurted out of me. It was something that I hadn’t consciously thought of before, but it had a confessional quality to it. I wasn’t sure if it was the drinking, or the confusing feelings from the earlier in the night, or from having just watched Aubrey get fucked by someone that wasn’t me, but I said it nonetheless. Maybe I just wanted to please him in that moment, to repay him for saving me earlier. Maybe I just wanted him to want me. Maybe seeing Aubrey be pleased by someone else made me. A few people noticed and snickered at my sissified feet, but not too many as people don't pay too much attention to shoes.After the hour was up, I came back to the store. "Look, it's the sissy shoe freak!" the girl said. Other customers looked on, but then they minded their own business. "Here" she said, "We have a buy one, get another half off sale, so I selected you another pair of shoes. I selected these for you." She held out a pair of white canvas sneakers. I angrily said, ?OK, just give.