To do this you have to obey, good little girlsobey always and you have to follow the typical aspirations of littlegirls."Alice waited a moment and ask...d Tom who he was and he answered Tammy.Then he asked him how old he was and he answered a year. She kept askingif he was a boy or a girl and he replied a girl. She asked him how hefelt and he responded frightened and fragile. Finally she asked him whathis aspirations were and he answered to be a good girl, to be a littleprincess and to learn how. ‘Am I boring you? I can analyse life forever.’ She reached out to brush a tear from his cheek. ‘No,’ she said, ‘not at all.’ ‘You were different, and yours came with kindness rather than lust. The kindness of a stranger who could reach into places that I doubt one in a thousand people would go. You doing that meant as much to me as the first time with Candy, and compared to that it was much better. You’ve done this before, whereas back then she hadn’t.’ ‘You were her first?’ ‘Yes, but not her. I heard the audience get silent and looked at Mel like adeer in the headlights. Being the pro that she was, she ad-libbedsomething about me failing my dance class which got a laugh from theaudience and gave me time to gather myself. After that everything went asscripted. We even got called back for two curtain calls.***With all that went on, nobody thought about the meet and greet afterwardat which I was the bartender. I realized it a soon as I walked into theroom, so I went behind the bar,. Remarkably, he wasn't ascumbag. Joanna could trust him."Do you need help?" asked Nadia."Sure."Silently they got to work. Nadia grabbed Joanna's things from thebathroom. There wasn't much to pack, but they worked slowly. Neither ofthem were in a hurry to say goodbye. It was too much to move all thetime, to be afraid all the time, to not know what tomorrow would looklike or where it would take place. On top of all of that, to remove theone constant comfort in this hell was too much."I should have.