I admit I'm doing it partly for me, the thought of dying by inches doesn't appeal to me at all. But, mostly I'm doing it for my children. I can't stan... the thought of forcing them to watch me fade away until only a shell is left. I don't want to burden them by forcing them through guilt and pain to come by and spend time with an empty husk. I want their last memories of me to be good, when I was able to function. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm selfish, but I'm gonna do it anyway. Just wanted to. Add that to the check-list for next time!Then it’s onto the outfit She’s going to wear, and of course it’s the one I’ve used in the worship sheet I’ve given Her. I’ve pasted the pics into this studio, so it’s a representation of what I’m hoping will happen – She poses in that outfit in this studio, and ‘me’ – represented by a cartoon figure – watching Her and cumming in my pants. I never believe that’s going to happen, though it’s happened twice before and She knows that. I know She doesn’t. Michaela was my girlfriend at the time. She’s about 5’6’’, reddish-brownish hair, and pretty fit body with some very nice D cup breasts. It was a neighborhood party that her parents were throwing, but there were still some people our age. That night I found myself in a hot tub with Michaela, her friends Deanna, Natalie, my friend Ryan, and some other guy. Michaela’s dad was right next to the hot tub, grilling some burgers and hotdogs for everyone. I never expected to find myself in the events. He kissed my girlfriend full on her lips , nelt down, pulling her panties down as he nelt on his knees, revealing her hot pussy. he then moved his right hand between her legs and started rubbing her wet pussy. Moaning more now my Karen opened her legs and groaned as Ken inseryed 2 fingers into her now dripping pussy. he then started to finger fuck her pussy and leaned forward and started to lick her exposed clit with the tip of his tung. I pulled my cock out of my pants then and started openly.