For gods sakes girl, that won't help anything It could drive me crazy though. so stop it." I'm sorry, it's just that... I can't help it. Derrick, my b...yfriend back in Indiana, he says I'm a cry baby... well, not really my boyfriend any more. He broke up with me when I moved to New York." So you had a boyfriend back in Indiana," the Manager said. "Derrick Billy Bob broke up with you... well he knew if you came to New York it wouldn't be long before you turned into a woman of the world. Are you a. I could recall it all and I could do the same with my memory of Kola. So long as I lived, neither she nor the others would ever die. It was something to think about.And it was something I didn't want to think about right then and there. Instead I decided to change the conversation towards other matters. I glanced about and asked about Rory."Where is your brother?" I asked Caitlin."Zahra is taking care of the clod," Caitlin told me with a smile upon her lips. "Rory is pissed and annoyed for what. ” Kathy did the best she could to smile with four of Cindy’s fingers in her mouth and replied with a simple, “UH-HUH”I heard applause and cheers coming from the kitchen. I turned enough to see Dan and Paul picking up the trays of sandwiches and Shawn was holding two new bottles of wine. “While you guys were playing, we made ourselves at home,” Paul said. “Thanks guys but know this, when you’re here in our house you are at home. Nothing’s off limits for any of you.”I felt Kathy squeeze my. What made me go berserk was that he had made tapes of his most intimate moments with Shirley. I knew a phone call wouldn't make him release the tapes. That's the reason I had to go and confront the son of a bitch in person."Tammy showed me the letter before our trip home last weekend, so it's been preying on my mind over a week now. I could only imagine what the letters were doing to Shirley and I've been expecting her to tell me about them but she hasn't. I still don't know if she didn't trust.