I was assistant producer. He was a camera man. Ian Marking." Her eyes moved beyond him and he turned to follow her gaze towards the window.He looked b...ck at her, “The photograph, that’s him?”Karen nodded her head, and her eyes moistened when he added, “A very striking young man.”Her breath shuddered in her throat as she said, "I adored him." Her eyes came back, wide to hold his, "He was killed in a car crash on the Alnwick by-pass. We'd been married just two and a half years." I'm sorry," he. I was on the phone with her, trying to keep my voice together, and she told me it would be OK. As I heard my siblings getting ready to leave for their friends' houses, I knew my window of opportunity was closing. That was the moment. I hung up the phone, opened my bedroom door, walked down the hallway into the kitchen with my head down, and started crying. All my anger left. All my fear left. I felt exhausted, defeated, and vulnerable. In between sobs, I said, 'I'm gay.' The aftermath: I had. We also did well in bed together, both as a group and as couples. It seemed that our relationships were growing and we all were dealing with the normal jealousies pretty well.Spending so much time with Brad brought my feelings for him to new heights and also changed my thoughts about my brother. While I still loved Eddie, with all my heart, I didn't feel as sexually attracted to him as I once was. My pussy still throbbed and my breathing still changed, but it was when I was with or thought. I’d have given them a hundred times that just to stay away if I’d known.”We stood and she hugged me again. “I believe there’s someone out there for you, Steve. You’re too good a man to be alone.”I sighed. “Maybe. I’ve married a white woman, a Hispanic, and a mixed race. I think I’ll ask Ms. Chen if she’s got any unattached relatives.”Her arm tightened on me. “I don’t think you’ll have to go that far. When you find her, send me an invitation. You have my email address. I’ll see you again,.