Yet another downer which ruined her temper."You don't look all that happy? What is that with these girls? It's always the same!" Rashid sighed with ac...ed disappointment. "Most people would be ecstatic if they had the opportunity to spend a few months in a true palace in an exotic country, bathing in luxury and every need alleviated with a snap of their finger. You don't have to worry for a second about food, beverage... About the annoying everyday responsibilities of the ordinary life. It is. I was on such a high, like I knew I might regret it later butcouldn't be concerned with that now. I wanted to get out there, pretendto really be Lorraine Parker.Really be her.I wanted to knock back a bunch of shorts and get pissed then go dancing.I wanted to snog a few guys, maybe shag one at the end of the night; seehow it went."Oh God." I put my head in my hands. "What's happening to me?"This wasn't who I was. I wasn't like that. But it felt so enticing, sonice. I wanted to give in and be. The three girls were together venting and debasing their rotten boyfriends when Charlotte the unelected leader of their trio explained listen girls we cant confront these guys yet we want to keep our boys but their wild behavior must be punished we must make them learn to have more control of their urges so they think with their heads at the top and not the bottom. Charlotte explained exactly what they were going to do we must trap them into thinking theyre going to have fun but it turns on. When she was on the other side, she came toward me and handed me a piece of paper. She said in that calm Southern voice, “I am throwing a party this Saturday night. If you have an open mind, be there by 7:30.” She turned and walked away before I could say anything. In my mind it wasn't a request, it was a command. That was ten years ago. I went to the party, and essentially never left. I learned about her world, and I was helplessly hooked - on her. It was eye-opening, mind-expanding, and not.