I'm not the type of guy that would find myself alone in a room with the woman who is wearing lingerie, asking to tie me down. I'm definitely not the t...pe of guy to submit to being tied down, so I said "OK. Let's do it."... I was almost shaking as I walked to the bed.She sat in the chair near the bed and asked me to remove my clothes. Now, I pride myself that I don't have a middle aged beer gut. I've always taken care of myself but as I got older, the workouts have become less and less. I began. "Ever since he died, I haven't been able to satisfy these cravings. You can't possibly understand what it's like, to live a secret so deep and forbidden but also so exciting and physically pleasurable. It's not something that can just be cut off, abruptly ended. I...just can't stop having those feelings. I need i****t, I crave it. But I don't have anyone to do it with anymore. Do you understand?"Matt was taking his clothes off as I spoke, and Breanna moved closer to me. She reached for my. . Jan felt as if she were bathed in a heated pool containing nothing but purest sensuality. This concept that was broiling her loins to a cinder had no counterpart or explanation or excuse in any kind of moral law; because it was never discussed, even clandestinely, women fundamentally had no defense against it. Animalism was a state all of itself and bore no relation to anything else a good woman was trained to resist. Consequently it was difficult for a young innocent like Jan to marshal any. Perfectly nice sexy breasts and a pretty face. She didn't wear sexy clothes, except when she went to bed. At least I thought they were pretty sexy. They weren't see-through negligees or anything but I started to notice them more and more after I learned about sex. She always wore these flimsy things that only came down to mid thigh. And she usually didn't wear panties to bed. I know.My 18Th birthday was in two days and I had grown a lot. I was taller than she was now, almost 6 feet. We were.