I turned to the page where I first wrote about her. It was May 16th. On June 20th I wrote about my first blow job.The next entry was very long as I tr...ed to explain how, and why, I lost my virginity in the back of a van to five guysI didn't know. From then on sex entries filled every page.There were gaps sometimes as I forgot to write about things for a day or two but almost everyday had an entry.I was curious about how many guys I'd actually fucked. It never bothered me before but after all. Has I let myself out I heard Annabelle’s voice ‘Holly when you find that special person hold her tight and never let her go you are not meant for the clubs there is one girl for you all you need is to find her I think you know who she is. You are special and meant to love and be loved hold on to that thought and never loose it’.Has I walked home I hadn’t thought of my first love Millie for two years the last I saw she was pressed against the cycle sheds kissing Andrew Wilkes his hand inside her. ....... "Please, Master?" "Perhaps later, slave. Time for your shower". I replaced the gagand went over to the pump and turned it on, selecting the slow setting. I returnedto my chair, lit a cigarette, took a sip of scotch and waited for the showto begin........................... Her moans could be heard over the sound of slowly dripping water as the pumptransferred the fluid from the pool into the overhead bucket. As the bucketfilled, the increasing weight pulled on the crotch rope, gradually. As I massaged it I slipped a finger in and worked her small hole and then slipped in another one and I started to finger fuck her ass. She loved it so much that she started to beg me to enter her and I got ready. I can clearly see that my cock was way too big for her ass and I knew I had to be careful and gentle. So I was very anxious to sample my first ass and so I rubbed my cock head around her opening and then pushed slowly until her hole gave way and my cock head slipped in her tight crack..