"I didn't know then that I would never finish my tour. I thought about Mel a lot. The times we made love stayed with me, a series of videos I would ru... through my head during the darkest times. But I would always come back to her betrayal. Some days I didn't care if I got killed or not. I guess I was depressed about the entire situation. I was risking my life each day "for the folks back home." Then I would think that I was doing this to protect Mel and her fiancé. Damn!My world turned to shit. Especially if, as I was beginning to think, my next step would be to try to findsomeone willing to fuck her while she was high.I decided to proceed in two ways. I placed an ad on Craigslist looking for a manto fuck her, I was careful with the wording so it wasn't too obvious that shewas going to be stoned out of her mind at the time. As last time, I got lots ofresponses and set about sorting through them for a few decent candidates. I alsobegan planning for our next adventure, the purpose of. The store clerk dropped to her knees, I could see Cater unzipping his zipper. The clerk’s right hand disappeared into Carter’s jeans and pulled out Carter’s semi-erected penis.“What the fuck is he doing in there?” I said.Johnny watched along with me.“He’s been in prison for five years, what do you think he’s doing?” Johnny said in a laughable voice.“The cops or a customer can pull up at this store at any moment.” I said in a panicky voice.“And we’ll blast them.” Johnny said in a childish. Mom had explained how this would hurt like hell for a short time, the first time it was broken, so I asked her if we could just get it out of the way, altogether. I'd rather be deflowered by mom than some selfish boy. I loved mom and I trusted her judgement.Mom ran a hot bath and told me to sit."Ooh, it's too hot, mom!" I cried out.Mom came to the door with her "toy", a rubbery plasticene cock, similar to what men have, she told me.My feet were used to the hot water, so I remained in a squat.