Jeff, however, did not make it easy for me.Despite the fact that I practically threw myself at Jeff, brushing against him, wiggling in front of him, d...ing everything but offering my body to him, Jeff just treated me as the mom of his friend. I knew what he wanted.Jeff was not going to take me; I would have to give myself to him. I don't know why, but I fought it. I don't know if I felt that he was too young, if I thought he was Rachel's, if it would ruin my relationship with Rachel, if I. .."I thought about her advice a lot for the next few days, and decided it would do little harm to test it out on Fran. I had already told her a little about Nicki and our sex-life. When we next met, I would lay it on a bit thicker, and see what her reactions were. I took Fran to a quiet table in my favourite cafe, and after a short chat about life in general and Jerome in particular, I worked the conversation towards sex, sex and Jerome, and finally sex with Nicki and me. I wondered how much. I just turned on my favorite mix that I love to listen to when you are here. It’s a mix of Donnell Jones, John B, Usher, and Tyrese. Oh the amazing ways you can move your body to the beat of those songs. You can sure make my body sing. Damn I can’t until you get here. I’m going to try to rest god knows I won’t get much sleep tonight. I hear you walking in my door right now. I’m going to act like I am still asleep. I want to see what you will do. I hear you in my room. My back is. I'm flattered, but forget it."The day my dad announced that he and Mary were going to get married my brother George and I threw a party for them. I caught Mary alone in the kitchen after she'd had several drinks and was in a mellow mood. She smiled at me and asked, "Are you going to mind having me around all the time now?" "Not a chance" I said, "The more you're around, the more opportunities I'll have, and sooner or later I'll get what I want." Mary laughed, "You can't be serious!" I took both.