She just stayed in place not moving and let me. Years later I learn she enjoyed that moment as much as I did. The proof was in the bathroom towel sh... grabbed to clean herself off. Boy juice, girl juice and blood streaks, not too much blood. I'm proud of that. Next day we took a skiff across the lake to town by ourselves. All the while arguing about which one of us would buy the rubbers. As I knew nothing of it, Beth would walk into the store to see where they were kept. She did then. It is hid under another fold of skin called the clitoral hood.I don't have either a male or female reproductive system so I'll never be able to parent a child. Because my body does not naturally produce the quantity of female hormones that I'll need to maintain a feminine appearance, I'll have to take carefully determined hormone treatments for the rest of my life.Most of her books are on the feminine psychology. During one of our early sessions, she told me "My theory of learning how to become. Fir wo aarahi thi chai ka cup lekar ke uske pairo me carpet ki dhaar aagayi or wo girne lagi or cup carpet per girgaya usko thodasa sahara dediaa per wo jaldise kitchen me gayi ke carpet kharab hojaega ese to saaf kerlu or wo kapda or pani lekar ghiss ne lagi tab mera dhyaan uske bade gale waale kameez par gaya uske gore gore ittne bade stann hil rahe the unke bich ek kaali lakeer do rasto me bat rahi thi oh bhagvaan kya nazara tha mera lund khada hogaya tha per muje hosh nahi raha ke meri. I couldn?t stop looking at the mirror and wondering whatplans Tony had in mind... suddenly I got nervous because what if Tonywanted to make a woman out of me... I was not ready for that... it wasnot in my plans... so I stayed on the room and Tony went to the room andasked me why I was taking so long, I told him what I was thinking and hetold me that those were his intentions... he told me that if I wanted todress as a sexy woman I had to feel what I sexy a woman feels... I toldhim I was not.