If you shaded something to make it more comfortable you were shown just how you manipulated things for your own ends. I felt humbled to be a part of t...is love and did my part to nurture what we had.I said, "Killing became easier when I could see how twisted and deformed some people were. Threatening the pack made it easier still. It makes me feel sick after because I'm reminded that this was what Knox was like." I might feel worried about you finding it easier but I can see what you mean while. We seemed to move together around the cottage, preparing meals together, talking, listening to music and later being very much in sync when we went to bed.I was not one to make too much of Christmas apart from spending too much on presents for Ellen and now Cate. I had always believed that many of the Christmas shows were pre-recorded with celebrities offering fulsome Christmas greetings to all and sundry long before the actual day. However I found that entertainers such as Cate and the band. When i came down Prema had breakfast ready. I ate as fast as i could told her am off to visit my uncle and wont be able to come back till late night. She told me she was already making preparations for lunch and insisted i come back and have lunch and would hear nothing of it. I finally agreed and told her i would be back around 1. She smiled.I went to my uncles and the place looked like a beehive with tons of people everywhere. I went in and spent time talking to a few relatives. I looked at. He had gone downstairs to his office and came up with duct tape and some Other things i had never seen before. he came towards me and shoved something in my mouth. A ball gag he called it. It was uncomfortable. And forced My Mouth To be Open Around A Large Silicone Ball. He tied rope around my ankles seperatly not together. He also did this to my wrists. And one around my waist. ' now, this will hopefully teach you to be a good girl, an obidiant girl.' He said. I was confused, i couldn't see.