The eyes of a boy he now considered to be a god. Through Ryan absence, Scott had deified him by paying tribute to a digital shrine.Meanwhile in anothe... room in the same house; his 45-year-old mother Penny was in bed doing very similar things. So much had happened between those years Ryan had left and married a girl named Sarah from his collage. At the time it seemed like it was for the best. It was the reasonable and 'normal' thing to do. In retrospect however, the terrible opposite happened to. .." I croaked weakly, mouth gone dry."Now, let's have a look to make sure you're up," he said, emphasizing the last word and sitting at my desk, tapping the screen, making the saver go away and calling up the Internet. "Yup, working fine...let's see now..."He tapped history and scrolled through my gay porn sites until he found one and clicked on it. He smiled, scrolling through images of young dudes butt- or face-fucking older guys, some in wrestling holds, some just straight out sex. . ?"She patted my shoulder soothingly "Don't worry sweetie, it's always ashock the first time in your new body. I'll leave you to adjust for awhile then we'll get you dressed and you can see the doctor for a quickcheck-up, is that okay?"I nodded, convinced that this was some kind of nightmare. Possibly I wasstill on the operating table and this was an artefact of the transitionprocess. And yet I knew it wasn't. Nurse Wendy turned and walked out ofthe room leaving me alone with Peggy's body.I. There was a very plain padded metal chair just outside the fitting room. It wasn't very comfortable, which I know because she gave me a little tap on the nose and told me to 'sit and wait' before she went into the fitting room. So I sat, and waited, and resisted the urge to shift my pants so I wasn't quite so obviously straining against them.I don't know how long I just sat and waited, eyes locked onto the fitting room door, but it felt like an eternity. My heart beat faster and I took deep.