I had this confidence I didn't have before... you see? It wasn't true, but that's how I felt." Carrie's face and tone showed a deep unhappiness."It......I can't justify it, Ryan. I was caught up in getting that next promotion and being happy with someone else giving me attention. I think I went a little crazy. I'm sorry, I really am."Ryan took a moment to digest what she'd said. He shook his head."And the things people have told me about the way you talked about me... about our life together?" he. Jeff sat in the seat and laid his head back against the head rest. He closed his eyes as the engines roared carrying the jet down the run way. A smile comes across his face when the reality of going home sank in. He was not supposed to be leaving for another 2 months, but with the deadline to get the troops home approaching; he was one of five in his unit to be given early dismissal. He started to call his wife, but decided against it. He wanted to surprise her. Jeff and Maegan, high school. Her mind was in a trance as she drove, wandering to the possibilities that might exist if she were able to get him out of the forums and in reality. ‘Oh come on Sandy, you would probably not really know what to say or how to even act around him,’ the little voice talked again. Inner goddess to the rescue – oh no girl, you know what you want and you could totally do it too. She closed her eyes, still in the car in her garage. She had always dreamed of being a dominant, at least for a time. To. My name was rarely spoken of. When it was it was just in passing, the humdrum. Me and him having to perform a chore for her, or, what I'd like for breakfast. Just mundane references, never a conspiratorial act or threat of any sort. Was I disappointed? Again I will not lie. It is inexplicable, but, sustains to this day.And they'd, well the girl created a sleep system, or, position, a dwelling, whatever you want to call it. (The Cave)"Cully, look; Tommy lays on his right side like this." He'd.